I can’t interrogate finality
Without tripping past it’s edge
The last few arduous rituals
Feel as flickering and spent
In a sentimental flush
I’ll miss anything I had
As I sever weighted tethers
To the beloved past
It’s theatre as you breath
It’s harmonies as you feel
But memory is tragically just fractured animation
While this would be the climax of a play
Or a ringing note on stage
Later, it’s just the last couple of frames
Tiny recoils of the motion
Can’t sum anything up
The crumbling edges of a wider swing
Just don’t define us
If there’s meaning in anything
The last time will suck
But that it does means that it doesn’t matter
You’ve built enough
That the last stone won’t add much
Calm Coded Messages
Stood up too fast again
An aeroplane jutting out of fuel
His figure bows like corrugated card
Against the grain, trying to fold in half
Blood pressure dropped the dial
Tuned half out from the brainwave station
To crackle and emulsify with phantoms in the static
Calm coded messages speak under panic
All he could think
As his volumes haemorrhaged ink
Was how it felt so good
To buckle over where he stood
He realised he’d been in so much pain
Anaesthesia pumped quietly by his now scrambling brain
Neutralising in him
Finally fine to feel weak as the room spins
Catharsis in submissive pose
There isn’t anymore strength that he owes
Long Climb
You’ve seen the view from the peak But never felt the ache deep in your bones until you reached The final steps back down Jolts like a machine gun Poles magnetising to old feelings Reintroduced to strides from the way up Feel their fresh pain again as you can’t forget what you’ve seen Got used to altitude at the top Of battered decisions you’re back wading through the details of To the exit It’s a long climb Towards a final night Towards a final slice of your old life And though you know it’s right It could never be Fit in it one last time And then leave There’ll be a final night There’ll be a drawn out tearing goodbye There’ll be an edge defined As you fall from it As you exit the eyes You inhabited Fit in one last time And then that’s it
Quit Vision 