Today is one of the hard days. They come and they go. We have fun and we don’t. Things are fixed then they’re broke. I try to be a sponge for the pain, but I caused it too. And you caused it for me before I turned back at you. The balance is lost now, but it was my numb hurt that kept it in check. So yes, I brought this hurt, but I didn’t invent it. It wasn’t born in me and to have me is not your default, no matter how it feels it might be. Today sucks because it rains And we lay writhing in pain at each other’s opposite visions. You cry and I am blank. For once in my life I am prepared and preplanned. I did my crying in instalments and now my debt is almost paid. Unlike everything else, this time it isn’t you who has saved. And you can blame me, and I’ll take it from you, Because despite what you say, I cared and still do. I’m sorry that it’s only hitting you now, And it feels like I’m stealing from you somehow. I’m sorry it’s hard and I’m sorry it hurts, And I’m sorry that you can’t believe all my words. The person you need no longer exists, Because he is me, the one rupturing this. It’s been the hardest design that I’ve ever made, And I’m sorry we never could feel quite the same.
Quit Vision 